Overwhelmed

Today marks the 7th official day that I have been in South Africa. It is hard for me to imagine that I have been here only a week. Yesterday marked my day of becoming overwhelmed with everything that is going on. I think it came from several different things...being sick, missing home, realizing that I am actually going to school, homework and getting to know 54 new people. One thing I never realized coming on this trip is that you will always be with people. Not that that's a bad thing but for me I need some time to myself. I am beginning to realize and figure out the balance and routine for this upcoming semester. I began to freak myself out sometime in thinking that I am going to miss why I came on this trip. I came on this trip to be transformed. Something that a good friend told me is that I cannot sit around and expect to change rather I need to concentrate on the now and the people around me and through that I will be changed. As I was thinking yesterday it is true that you don't ever really realize change while your in the process of it. Rather it just happens and you wake up one day realizing that you have completely changed into a new person. I think I came into this semester saying that I didn't have any expectations but I am now realizing that I came in with a lot of high expectations. I am already wondering when my expectations are going to be met and it has only been a week. I took today as a day to allow myself to rethink my thinking and to throw all those expectations away. I feel like having too many expectations always ends up in let downs. I am hoping that I may be able to refocus my attention towards the things I need to be focusing on. One thing is for sure that I must immediately start on is getting better. I woke up this morning with a sore throat and realized my tonsils were huge. I have been feeling very dizzy and getting headaches since arriving on campus and not sure why. So sleep is going to be my friend for the next couple of days. Hopefully the sun will come out tomorrow. The rain is starting to get old for me! Not that I am complaining :)
P.S. I went to a coffee shop place called Mugg & Bean and got a Carribean mocha. It literally was the best coffee I have every had in my life. The place was the cutest. You get seated and they bring it out in a super cute cup and everything. I got to meet up with my RA from this past semester and catch up which was super fun!